Thursday, February 27, 2014

Hold Yourself

When I was growing up and I found myself disliking someone or even entertaining the thought that I hated someone, I would try to imagine them as a 2 year old child. I would stare at their faces, their gestures and I would watch the years melt away until they were just toddling about, vulnerable and in need of constant assistance. Seeing them like this, even for a moment, was enough to open my heart. I would find myself pitying them, cooing over them, giggling at their infantile motions, and finally... loving them.

As an adult, I have not been able to dislike many people. It's become part of my habit to imagine them like a child and ultimately loving them because of this. Jesus tells us that God loves us like this. I believe that he has given us the ability to love like he does. We share his heart when we choose to tap into that great, mysterious power.

It has only been in recent years that I've started to realize that I have to see myself like this too. I have to love myself like the little child that I am, the little tot that God sees everyday in me. How many times have I looked in the mirror and disliked what I saw? How many times have I heard the words coming out of my own mouth and hated what I said? Too many times to count.

What if I looked in the mirror, studied my gestures, looked into my own eyes and saw what Papa sees- a little child. Would my own heart open to the child in me, a child who doesn't deserve love but just gets it? Isn't that what we give babies? They didn't do anything, they just are loved. This is how God loves us. This is how we are supposed to love one another. This is how we are to love ourselves.

I saw this video today and it made an impression on me. I was so touched when one of the girls held the image of herself with such affection. This is how we should hold our beautiful, imperfect selves each day. Just like Papa does.